I’ve spent the better part of the last 4 years using physical fitness to cope with my PTSD. Having a mental health disability is challenging and often misunderstood. Yes, I look healthy but I don’t feel so good on the inside. Even with the gym and my ability to keep my disability at bay I still felt like something was missing. This past summer I hit another low point.
August 9th I came home from work and I started drinking heavily. I was trying to fill that hole in my heart with alcohol. One thing leads to another and started drunk texting everyone I cared about telling them how much of a fool I am for letting things get to me. Thanks to an old battle buddy he talked me through that moment and I was able to sober up and get my wits back. I felt like a hypocrite, It was at that moment I realized I needed a new challenge and I thought really hard about my present state. I had gained a little weight, I was bored, and I was tired of trying to be the best at exercising.
As I started to reminisce about my time in the army it had accursed to me I missed Combat Sports. A sport of pure grit and personal responsibility. A challenge as old as time and a true test of one’s discipline and sportsmanship.
With that revaluation, I started researching MMA classes in my area. Knowing I was a little rusty, mid 30’s, and bad joints I was a little apprehensive. Yet, I was determined in my quest. That’s when I found former UFC champions school Pettis Martial Arts.
I arrived and met an old friend there for my day 1 trail. After the first rear leg kicked I was hooked! With every strike I could feel the anxiety, the tension in my chest, the worries just disappear. It was absolutely euphoric! It was exactly what I was missing.
Pettis Martial Arts is a family friendly environment with world-class instructors. Since joining I’m now looking at participating in my first contest in 10yrs. Win or lose, I know this is what I needed to keep moving forward.